lovecraft68
Bad Doggie
- Joined
- Jul 13, 2009
- Posts
- 41,950
I was speaking with my wife the other day and we were discussing childhoods and the different ways we were brought up and raised(she is almost Brady Bunch and I was raised eventually in foster homes and around a lot of abuse and issues)
The conversation brought up something I had not thought of in quite some time and that is....where did it start? The fantasies and desires that lead to this lifestyle and why?
I am aware of the when and it was quite early. Now I hope I am not breaking underage rules here because the age has a point. I recall at a very early age-I am thinking by the school I was in and the girl involved probably no later than second grade.
I remember dreams and fantasies of having her tied down-not naked, nor was I-and tickling her bare feet. Her laughing, but then begging me to stop. I was waking up hard not even knowing what the hell that was and thinking something was wrong.
I also recall a friend getting a hold of his big brother's dirty magazines and us looking at them and all the kids looking at the boobs(like we knew what to do back then, I think we knew we were supposed to like boobs) and I was, again, looking at feet.
I can remember reading comic books and anything that had a woman tied to a chair or anything like that would get a reaction from me. There was a 70's magazine called Vampirella that was black and white and aimed more at adults and there was some naked bondage in that one that really affected me.
So long story short my foot fetish, bondage and control fantasies were fully awake and "installed" before I hit double digits in age.
My question is where the hell could this come from? Yes, I was raised in an abusive environment which leads to being kind of broken in many ways, but what the hell would I have seen to make me think of tickle torture and bondage when I had no clue what sex even was?
Does anyone here have any thoughts or do you think we can somehow be genetically predisposed towards that type of thing?
The conversation brought up something I had not thought of in quite some time and that is....where did it start? The fantasies and desires that lead to this lifestyle and why?
I am aware of the when and it was quite early. Now I hope I am not breaking underage rules here because the age has a point. I recall at a very early age-I am thinking by the school I was in and the girl involved probably no later than second grade.
I remember dreams and fantasies of having her tied down-not naked, nor was I-and tickling her bare feet. Her laughing, but then begging me to stop. I was waking up hard not even knowing what the hell that was and thinking something was wrong.
I also recall a friend getting a hold of his big brother's dirty magazines and us looking at them and all the kids looking at the boobs(like we knew what to do back then, I think we knew we were supposed to like boobs) and I was, again, looking at feet.
I can remember reading comic books and anything that had a woman tied to a chair or anything like that would get a reaction from me. There was a 70's magazine called Vampirella that was black and white and aimed more at adults and there was some naked bondage in that one that really affected me.
So long story short my foot fetish, bondage and control fantasies were fully awake and "installed" before I hit double digits in age.
My question is where the hell could this come from? Yes, I was raised in an abusive environment which leads to being kind of broken in many ways, but what the hell would I have seen to make me think of tickle torture and bondage when I had no clue what sex even was?
Does anyone here have any thoughts or do you think we can somehow be genetically predisposed towards that type of thing?