Dyslexicea
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Even though I say I want to be his slave, I am reluctant to let go of my own resistance. My behavior is affected by some of our sexual activities - and I really don't want to risk the effects erratic (and/or erotic) behavior would have on my developing business. I'm trying so hard right now to sell myself and my work, I don't feel like I can afford some of the more bizarre situations that have arisen when we pursue our desires without inhibitions.
So, even though I say it's him, it's really me putting on the brakes. That's another reason I feel so disappointed. I want the freedom to act without sexual inhibitions.
I'm really asking this for very selfish reasons. What I'd like to know is that if sex was removed from your relationship would you still want to be his slave?
I only asking because I have this desire to move to a D/s relationship maybe somewhat more so Master/Slave but this desire is still driven by my sexual desires. The reality of our relationship is she's already more dominant as far as the direction our relationship has taken but to move to D/s is for me about sexual desire, even though I'd like to be submissive in other ways also.
It's not possible to do so full time as we have two daughters not yet three and I don't want them to believe the only choices they have in a relationship is to be dominant or submissive. They'll have enough to deal with having two mommies but in the world we live in others well impose that upon them, as unfair as that is.
I do fully understand how your lifestyle could affect your business. I know if I practiced law here where we live in Iowa, it's rather homophobic, I'd never really be able to establish myself like I have in New York City.
I just hope you can come up with some kind a compromise that works for both of you.