Steelheart2018
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My thoughts will flow today because I am drinking Jameson. That’s right, whiskey-o’clock already (it’s not noon yet here, but no one really cares, right?). I’ve also obtained some ice cream for breakfast which should be perfect to match it. I’m just going to write and post what comes out. Sorry in advance if it’s a bit incoherent.
I saw AD’s post about body shaming and it got me thinking about my own body issues. I know I’ve got a few enviable bits, but I also have some parts of me I don’t like to show to everyone because I have been engrained with the thought that they are not desirable. I have stretch marks. I have calluses from work (and play). I also have deeper, emotional scars from when I’ve been ridiculed or shamed by others for my flaws. These emotional scars are probably uglier than anything physical I could show, and yet I am still hesitant to show all of me for worry that I may offend.
This paragraph is about pain. I’m in so much pain I don’t think I can go on without addressing it. I used to think all pain was pleasing. Man was I wrong. I do like pain, don’t get me wrong; that sting from after a hard smack, the stretch that pulls me apart from the inside as I’m pinned against a bed, the hard toothsome tug on my nipples from a nibble... these and so many other forms of pain are welcomed. But this one I’m battling right now? Man, it is kicking my ass. I’ve never had pain that is so exhausting, so limiting, so utterly annoying. Without going into too much detail, let’s say I’m just so done with it (hence the morning drinking). I’ve cried too many times in the last few days because of it. I’m so FUCKING done.
I like being barefoot. Heels are nice, flats are fine, but when I can choose? I’m bare. There’s something about being connected to the ground and feeling the strength or flexibility of the earth beneath me. I curl my toes into the ground when I’m standing, feeling my connection here and knowing that I can stand here through anything. You hear that pain?!!? ANYTHING.
Your legs are stunning, and your one beautiful woman.