Peeping over the parapet.....

AliveInside said:

Wonderful post, Pam. I always love reading about your experiences. Always so interesting and exciting at the same time. What it must have felt like that first time in the studio! I can only imagine what the trip home afterwards was like.

Thanks for such a terrific thread

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Pamelaxx69 said:

Pamela showing her bum to the photographers, too scared to turn round!



New edit of an earlier photo. It was taken in the first few minutes of my very first nude session for photo club members. A couple of minutes before I had been posing in a bikini, with no thoughts at all of taking anything else off; I had often posed in swimwear at what we jokingly called "portrait sessions", so I don't think the photographers had any expectations either.

All that changed when a I did a pose leaning forward, showing off quite a lot of cleavage - I forget what his precise words were, but one of the photographers paid me a rather fulsome compliment and hinted that he would like to help me unclip my bikini top.

Those few words were all I needed - I didn't take up his offer of assistance, I just whipped my bikini top off and stood in front of them topless. They were delighted, shutters were clicking like mad, and my mood changed from slightly frisky to all-out horny in a matter of seconds.

I am not sure whether the photographers were expecting things to go any further, but from that moment on all my thoughts were concerned with getting my bikini bottom off as well. What was holding me me back was the rather old-fashioned thought that they might be shocked if I actually did it - I had a reputation for being a "nice girl" at the club, and something in my upbringing was telling me that a nice girl doesn't suddenly strip off in front of unsuspecting people and expect them to look at her bottom, and her pubic hair, and possibly quite a lot in between as well.

That concern put a bit of a damper on my libido, and for what seemed a long time I put on a series of wooden poses and let them photograph my breasts.

I was eventually unlocked from my half-frozen state by the man who had flattered me out of my bikini top a few minutes before. I think he had probably tried the same technique with other models, but his words were exactly the reassurance I needed - "Pam, would you like to tuck your thumbs into your waistband?"

I needed no further encouragement - with all the attention now below my waist, and my thumbs provocatively close to my electrified pubis, nestling in my tangle of hair, I now had a clear go ahead to slide my bikini bottom down.

Still trying rather vainly to appear innocent about it all, I eased the waistband down a little and let them take some photos, but I didn't get the sort of response I was hoping for from the photographers. I think I probably recognised that they were feeling as uncertain about what was happening as I was - they didn't want to push me into doing something I might regret or feel ashamed about. Realising that I had to make the running, I decided to make them a rather explicit offer - I didn't look down, I did it entirely by feel - I eased one side of the waistband down far enough to give them their first view of my pubic hair. A couple of gasps of surprise told me I had made my my point. I don't recall exactly how things happened immediately after that, but I have a recollection of sliding the waistband down over my bottom and turning to show them my rear view before plucking up the courage to get on with what was now clearly the main business of the evening. As I turned round to face them again I was left in no doubt just how big a step I was about to take - the photographers now seemed very close, and more than half of them were down on one knee, cameras at the ready, strategically placed to get a very clear low-level view between my legs. I realised that I wouldn't be able to get my bikini bottom off without giving at least some of them a very clear view between my open legs, and I thought briefly of turning my back on them while I slipped it off, in the interests of preserving a bit more modesty.

I soon rejected that idea as being rather wimpish, and realising it was now or never, I decided I just had to get on with it. I slid down the front of the waistband and was gratified to hear several sharp intakes of breath as the full extent of my pubic hair was finally revealed, at least to those with the most frontal view. As I was about to begin to slide my bikini bottom down over my thighs I became very aware of how moist and aroused I was, and that gave me yet another thing to worry about - I knew from lots of detailed self-inspection that the view between my legs would now be an unruly tangle of moist hair and tumescent labia which I would be unable to conceal from the nearest photographers. Somehow I suppressed that thought and slid my bikini bottom down to my knees as quickly as I could. The photographers seemed to be entranced so I let off my guard for a moment, but within a moment or two I was brought back to reality by the sound of three or four shutters firing off. I knew immediately that I had inadvertently given the front photographers an absolute gift of a clear open leg shot of my tangled hair and labia - I had being working momentarily on ingrained habit - in order to get my bikini bottom off, I was now standing on one leg with the other raised high enough to slip my foot out, the way I always did when I undressed.

So, by the time my bikini bottom was lying discarded off to the side, I had degenerated into a quivering mass of embarrassment and confusion. Ever since the beginning of puberty it had always seemed a bit of a mystery to me how aroused female genitals could actually be considered a thing of beauty - I had had enough boyfriends to be sure that most of them would not have agreed with my view, but having just given a very graphic and unintended display of my engorged pubis to a group of photographers, I was in no real state to view the situation rationally. I didn't quite put my head in the sand but I did the next best thing - reasoning that my rear view was certain to be less embarrassing than my front view, I turned my back to the photographers and did my best to regain my composure.

Hence this photograph - I think the photographers were a little confused by my behaviour, but they did busy themselves taking photographs of my bottom while I slowly plucked up the courage to turn round and face then again.

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michelangelo100 said:

hi pam, thank you for the incomparably gorgeous pics of your bushy cunt and anus...also the text about your feelings is fantastic...but one request...on one of your profile pics it looks like you are wearing a suspender belt...are there pics of you not only with that beautiiful full bush...but also clad in suspender belt and stockings? Xxx michael

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Pamelaxx69 said:

I was on a real high once I had got over my nerves, and somehow avoided having a spontaneous orgasm, despite one very close call during the coffee break. The walk back home was buoyant, to say the least, but I had to be very careful when I got home to avoid raising any suspicions with my parents about what I had been getting up to - to me they had seemed to be getting a bit inquisitive about what I was finding such great fun at the photographic club.

I really didn't want my high to dissipate, so I want to bed as soon as I could and had a wonderfully paroxysmic time reliving the evening, assisted by a fair amount of manual stimulation.

Pamela

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michelangelo100 said:

hi pam, thank you for the incomparably gorgeous pics of your bushy cunt and anus...also the text about your feelings is fantastic...but one request...on one of your profile pics it looks like you are wearing a suspender belt...are there pics of you not only with that beautiiful full bush...but also clad in suspender belt and stockings? Xxx michael

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EOS60D said:

Ms Pamela:

I must echo the words of those before me on your thread... You are an amazing and erotic creature. Your honesty is refreshing, and your pics and stories leading up to the pics are just so arousing.

Thank you and please if there is anything you'd like shared from us, it's only fair that you ask given the gifts you've graced us with!

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michelangelo100 said:

Hi Pam...

yr erotic underwear pics are just too too much. You are just too nice and sweet and darling to post them. And to think that there may be hundreds more locked away in your archive! I hope you are going to bequeath that archive to the nation when you pass on.

You should write a book, an illustrated book. “My life as a photographic model” sort of memoir. You write in such a charming, natural and sexy way, that text accompanied by the pics would have to be a best seller!r

And you are right...it is glistening...like a christmas tree covered with thousands and thousands of tiny, tiny little fairy lights!

I keep thinking what the other members of the photo club must have thought. They must have thought they had come to photographic heaven. The God of photography had blessed their obscure little club with the model beyond all models. Little sweet 13 year old Pammie who'd posed for portraits suddenly transformed into the goddess of sex and beauty come to their little club. How they must've vied for your attention. How they must have feared that you would be discovered and taken away to fame and fortune and leave them bereft. For,. having known such perfection,. how could they ever go back to anything less. The competition for your “attention” must've been enormous.

In conclusion, super super pics. Of course one could go on begging for more. What about some full body shots? What about your pussy in suspenders from the front with legs parted? And so on and so on. But that would just be so greedy. One should be so grateful for what one has received. But is enough ever enough in the garden of erotica? Appetites are insatiable there.

Thanks for the great new writing. That guy who got you to take your bra off must've been very comfortable and confident with women.

XX Michael

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michelangelo100 said:

OMG..the perfect platonic breasts.

You know Plato said that up in heaven there is a perfect model of everything that exists on earth. Everything on earth represents some feeble effort to approximate the perfect model that exists in heaven.

But in this case it seems that they decided to send the model down to earth...

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Pamelaxx69 said:

Thank you for your encouragement, Michelangelo. Always keen for compliments, I thought I would post a photograph from an outdoor session with several of the same group of club photographers:

Up against the wall - Pamela poses outside

The whole idea of posing outside added a huge frisson of excitement to the session. I will write more about that when I have a little more time!

Pamela

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Rowan00 said:

Your stories about these events are just about as hot as the pictures resulting -- and that's a major compliment!

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Pamelaxx69 said:

Thanks for the comment, Rowan. It is always good to get encouragement. Please let me know if there is anything you would like to hear about - I am keen to respond to suggestions and questions!

Pamela

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Rowan00 said:

The spontaneous orgasm story was amazingly erotic .... forgive me if this has been answered elsewhere, but have you ever allowed yourself to be watched having sex? Or would you, given the chance?

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Pamelaxx69 said:

I haven't really thought it much, it doesn't really appeal to me. I cannot deny, however, that being seen nude really turns me on and that I have pretty well no inhibitions about what people can see.

The context is important, so if I am completely happy about the situation I am likely to become very sexually aroused if I know I have appreciative viewers. Despite the silly attitudes expressed by some purists, I like nudism because it makes me sexy, and I love allowing respectful people to look at me - it is especially exciting if they make some sort of eye contact and make it clear they appreciate what is happening. It is in those situations that I am likely to feel like involving the viewer or viewers in my increasing excitement.

On occasions, provided I am unlikely to shock or distress anyone else, I have responded to viewers with fairly discreet but obvious masturbation. In principle I would be perfectly happy for this to proceed to orgasm - once more, context is important, and I would only do it for one single person or a couple.

I know you have read about my spontaneous orgasm in the studio. I wouldn't voluntarily do that for a large group of photgraphers, but with a small group I know well, I have no reservations about letting them see me have an orgasm. I don't actively seek it, because I find that a lot of the thrill of nude modelling comes from maintaining a high level of sexual excitement for a long period, something which is spoiled by an early orgasm.

Because I really am an amateur model, most of my one to one sessions have been with a current sexual partner, and in that situation practically every session will end with a mind-blowing fuck somewhere or other in the studio!

Pamela

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michelangelo100 said:

Hi Pam...

yr erotic underwear pics are just too too much. You are just too nice and sweet and darling to post them. And to think that there may be hundreds more locked away in your archive! I hope you are going to bequeath that archive to the nation when you pass on.

You should write a book, an illustrated book. “My life as a photographic model” sort of memoir. You write in such a charming, natural and sexy way, that text accompanied by the pics would have to be a best seller!r

And you are right...it is glistening...like a christmas tree covered with thousands and thousands of tiny, tiny little fairy lights!

I keep thinking what the other members of the photo club must have thought. They must have thought they had come to photographic heaven. The God of photography had blessed their obscure little club with the model beyond all models. Little sweet 13 year old Pammie who'd posed for portraits suddenly transformed into the goddess of sex and beauty come to their little club. How they must've vied for your attention. How they must have feared that you would be discovered and taken away to fame and fortune and leave them bereft. For,. having known such perfection,. how could they ever go back to anything less. The competition for your “attention” must've been enormous.

In conclusion, super super pics. Of course one could go on begging for more. What about some full body shots? What about your pussy in suspenders from the front with legs parted? And so on and so on. But that would just be so greedy. One should be so grateful for what one has received. But is enough ever enough in the garden of erotica? Appetites are insatiable there.

Thanks for the great new writing. That guy who got you to take your bra off must've been very comfortable and confident with women.

XX Michael

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michelangelo100 said:

Hi Pam...

yr erotic underwear pics are just too too much. You are just too nice and sweet and darling to post them. And to think that there may be hundreds more locked away in your archive! I hope you are going to bequeath that archive to the nation when you pass on.


XX Michael

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