Where is Christabell???

Life as you know has been difficult at best.
Amongst the issues: heart trouble( severe tachycardia(220beats per minute there for about a week), kidney trouble in that they hurt all the time, stomach trouble nausea and vomiting nearly daily and of course the never ending head ache from hell. Some days I am wracked with siezure like episodes that leave me barely able to walk let alone think.They have put me on medications that wipe me out. I have no inclination for anything. I had not realized that so much time has passed since my last posting - More than a month! between being disconnected mentally and weaker than a premature kitten most days I am amazed some mornings that I remember my own name.
It is so frustrating - I remember things then cant remember them for the life of me. I sit down to write and cannot write a word nor remember what it was I wanted to write. I go to post and forget what I am posting. I get emails from people and I know I know them but I cannot place them or why they would be writing me.

To be honest my computer hasnt been on for a couple of weeks cuz I couldnt remember my passwords and have been getting locked out of my favorite places. I just read more than a dozen messages with my passwords in them so maybe I can start coming around again.

I have an appointment with the neurologist some time in the next two weeks. Then I am going off the fucking meds. The really frustrating part is that they are refusing me any pain relief and are demanding I see a pyschiatrist before they see me again. Just like always - we dont know whats wrong so there for you must be crazy - oh no you're upset, you're depressed, you're angry and we dont want to deal with you, so lets just medicate you into mindlessness so we dont have to deal with your valid and appropriate emotions.

You can let people know as much or as little and send my apologies for seeming to be a flake. I'm not I just cant function properly right now.

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TE999 said:

Give Christa my best Lady C.

Healing vibes and positive energies heading her way.

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Selena_Kitt said:

I heard from her today as well... she's not doing well

Send lots of healing vibes!

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LadyCibelle said:

I will, Te As Selena said, she's really not doing well, and it really worrisome.

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DesertPirate said:

She needs to be checked for MSG allergy (heart overspeed), Chrons, Celiacs, and fybromyalgia. Fybro and Celiacs both cause food alergies and can cause cronic fatigue and other problems. Been fighting this mess with the wife for 5 years, it's a bitch!

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There are a number of things that are wrong that they arent treating except as a wait and see kind of thing.
Leukocitis- chronic high white count ( I average about 15k the norm is about 8k) so I always feel like crap because I run a low grade fever daily.
Static Migranosis - complex migraine that gets locked into a loop and cant break - they usually resolve themselves. 7.5 months straight with a 9 day break then bam back worse than ever. The doctors say that the reason my memory is so shoddy is because the brain is trying to protect itself. It shuts down other areass like short term and long term memory and makes recall next to impossible most days.
Sporadic Hemiplegic Migraine - this is the one that causes the siezure like episodes. Its rather Rare and flat out difficult to handle. It really does look as if I am having a full blown siezure and afterwards I am done in for several hours with my wits less coherent than scrambled eggs.
Esophogial Spasm - this one I doubt - but with how nauseated I am all the time and then vomiting maybe they have something here.
Tachycardia - paroxymal tachycardia is what they are calling it... originally brought on by adverse reaction to medication. But all the studies on my heart say its in great shape - just having electrical issues...they do seem to be improving but sometimes its so bad my arms go numb and I feel like my chest is being crushed.
Seven herniated discs in neck and upper spine with one full rupture mid thoracic spine. (this is what they saw on the MRI and thought was a tumor - talk about wanting to bitch slap the Doc for scaring the bejesus out of me.)
Degenerative Arthritis in spine, hands, and knees, with swelling and constant pain from bone on bone grating.

ANd of course its all in my head - idiots.
SHort list on my way to the doc this morning for yet another futile appointment.
Hope this explains some of it.
Try danedlion root tea.... that really helps the renal system cleanse.
I will be around next week I think
Hopefully I will remember my passwords for Literotica - and post again. Since I am remembering better today - please let selena kitten know that I will endeavor to send the images she requested post haste.

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ABSTRUSE said:

Please give her our love

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LadyCibelle said:

I will. Speaking of will, do you know that you're very visually pleasing today?

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